1) I'm so tired of people fucking with me!!!!! Do I have "fuck with me" on my head or somewhere? I feel so unsafe anywhere I go.
2) Damn bosses were arguing all.....day.....long yesterday. I can't stand fighting. It really upsets and takes me to a place in my head that I hate. I was so ready to just walk out the door and tell them to call me when they are done. I can't take much more of their fighting.
3) I broke my damn Nintendo DS last night. Was angry about my day and I just kept getting more and more upset and all of a sudden THRRRROOOWWWW...........and then....CRASH! Oh, fuck! It shattered into pieces. Just great!
4) I'm tired. I'm so wore out physically and mentally. I need sleep...about 12 hrs. might do it.
5)I've fucked up on my money...again...I need to be more organized.
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Taking off my mask...
I have worn what I call my "mask" since I can remember. It is what has helped me survive all my life. I hide the true me, who I really am. Now, I'm guessing you must be wondering, "Who is the true you?" The true me is hidden deep within me. She is scared, lonely, hurting, broken. She is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse,rape , physical abuse, emotional abuse, and verbal abuse.
Taking off my mask...
Inside Myself
- Masked Emotions
- I'm a 22 year old who loves animals and nature. I am trying to heal from my past. I am, also, trying to let the true me out and get rid of this mask that has protected me for so long. Also, I struggle with Self-harm alot. It's a coping skill I've used for years.
How I feel everyday
How I feel at nighttime
A question I often wonder
I'm always...
Smiling while hurting
How I feel about myself
Friends
Message Boards I Visit
Honestly OK by Dido
I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
But I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day, if I was safe in my own skin
Then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin
And I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
But I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day, if I was safe in my own skin
Then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin
And I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
3 comments:
just wanted to say that Im listening.. and to keep your chin up.. always.. this may seem corny but this too shall pass..
*hugs*
Cassandra
Thank you. Not corny at all. It always helps to hear that from someone else. I try to tell myself that but I never believe it. It always takes someone else telling me. *hugs*
Sorry you had such a bad day sweety. ((((((((((((huggles)))))))))))
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