Break Up

Friday, August 22, I broke up with my boyfriend. Some things did change with us, but it still wasn't what I wanted. I wasn't happy. So...I ended it. I was scared that he was gonna go crazy, BUT, to my surprise, he didn't! He was shocked at first, but then we came to the agreement that we didn't need to be together. I completely expected him to go crazy and get angry. But he didn't.

I told him he had to move out. Us living together just doesn't work. We are still friends. I hurt...really bad. Cause I've hurt someone. But it had to be done. The relationship was taking it's toll on me. I learned to put my feelings first. And it feels AWESOME!

I feel free........I AM free! And this feeling is wonderful.

But I still have that hurt inside me. I know I will. I still love him and care about him, but we just can't be in a relationship.I have cried and cried. But I will move on. I will live!

I went out with my friend, Amy, last night. It felt so great to just do what I want and not have to answer to anyone. I had sooooo much fun. I didn't realize just how much I missed her!

I am in control of my life now. I am going to work hard on healing. Work hard on myself. I am taking the oppurtunity to get my life together and be who i really am. Not who I feel I should be.